Compost in my life...

wow--its been a while since i posted...the point of this post is actually to accumulate the detrius in my life right now and put it in the compost pile so it can ferment--the sadness and pain in it can leach out and the nurtients can go back to the earth, where they belong...

 first off--this woman and her shovel had a difficult time as i dug up a huge piece of buried cement in my back garden and happened to break the handle of my shovel...i cried like a baby--that shovel had been mine for over 20 years...and it was a powerful totem to me...my daughter had asked to have it when i died...i will eventually find a skilled craftsman to replace the worn handle, and maybe i will remember to take care of it and put it in the hut when it rains--but until then, i had to go to the store and buy a new shovel--one felt right after handling and feeling the energy of many...and i did get the 3 foot by 2 foot huge piece of cement buried years ago by the builders of my house out of the ground so i could plant a blue berry bush in its stead...i worked it and worked it and then wrapped a rope around it and with the helps of my two young daughers, we heaved it out of the ground--ofcourse, it was too heavy for me to pick up then--so, in the corner of my yard it lays--a testament to my strength, when i need my strength, and a reminder that with my daughers--and ANY shovel, we can change the world.

I also had a tough time losing a friends husband suddenly--he died at 42 years of age in his sleep one night and she couldnt wake him in the morning--he leaves behind a 1st and 4th grader a lovely wife and a huge family of friends-he will be missed tremendously---

Stress translated as pain in my body--i had hip and neck issues--and after a short period of feeling sorry for myself--i decided that going to see the accupunturist would be a blessing--she also recommended a nutritionist who i am working with to answer my food confusion--I loved raw food living, but it isnt working for me---so, now i am a transitioning to balanced macrobiotics with raw foods as well--you dont have to be either or, you can be both--and its working tremendously well for me--i am totally energetic--able to leap tall buildings in a single bound....well, you know the deal...

I also saw the movie the secret and am very jazzed about it--nothing i didnt already know--but very enjoyable and i will see if there is anyone around these parts interested in talking about it...

I am also transitioning off dairy because of sinus issues...sad to lose a good comforting friend, but finally in a place where i feel safe enough to make the change...

OK==thats all the junk--off it goes to the compost...mix it all up and the good stuff floats back up to the top--its summer--kids are home--amazing to spend time with them every day--babysitting my sisters parrot--who loves my two other parrots and my dog and my kids and my home and even my cats--she even stopped picking out her feathers and is relaxing and i am hoping she will stay with me--i wont try and manifest it because its her path and my sisters path--but i am hoping my sister does the right thing for the bird.

enjoy your fourth of july--i will be relaxing and spending quiet time with family..

ali